Stepping up

“At any moment, you have a choice, that either leads you closer to your spirit or further away from it.” – Thich Nhat Hanh

This quote literally stopped me dead in my tracks this morning. Not only has it been weeks since I posted a blog post, but I have been journaling less frequently and have given very little attention to eat.bend.breathe. I knew I had to get back in the game – to find someway to feel reconnected. The problem was that I was not sure how and why I became disconnected in the first place. Then I came across this quote. Leave it to Thich Nhat Hanh to call a spade a spade. “At any moment you have a choice…”. Ah, accountability. You see for me, I am realizing that disconnection from my writing and from my passion tends to occur when, for one reason or another, I am making choices to step away from my spirit.

I traveled for work last week and I find that nothing brings out bad choices in me like business travel. For some reason I leave home base and the wheels fall off. I skip workouts and eat processed food; I drink far too much coffee in the a.m and far too much wine in the p.m. I also feed into others’ energy. I buy into the low morale of others and I gossip at happy hour. I tend to leave my spiritual compass at home when I am on the road.

So how does one move closer to their spirit when they travel? Or when they are shuffling kids off to soccer practice? Or when tending to the hundred other commitments we all have in our lives? How does one stay connected to their passion or true to their work when life keeps getting in the way? I suppose Thich Nhat Hanh is on to something. We make choices. And there are times when choosing the caffeine, the alcohol and the gossip seems far easier than choosing the work of your soul. I like to think that awareness is 80 percent of the battle. That now that I am aware of my bad choices. I will pack a mediation pillow and a singing bowl on my next business trip. However, I suspect that choice will always be a challenge and in those times when I prevail, I will write more freely and honor my body and my soul. And the times when I don’t, I will lie awake in a hotel room wondering why I can’t pull together a decent blog post.